here we go

Last night the shit totally hit the fan.  My dad was disoriented, crabby, mean, and he looked horrible.  After some serious convincing (basically an intervention this morning from his best friend) we got him to a doctor to do some blood tests.

We all knew what it was and we were right.  His ammonia levels are off the charts which is due to his liver shutting down.  The cancer has basically destroyed it.

On Monday we were talking and watching the Walking Dead.  On Tuesday he was stumbling around the house.  On Wednesday the doctor told us to call our family as there wasn’t much time left.

Tomorrow my mom and dad go to the doctor’s office to start talking about hospice… the thing I’ve been dreading the most.

I’ve been waiting for weeks for this day to come but I really didn’t think it would come this fast.  All I can ask is prayers and good vibes for me and the fam.  Let’s hope this next stage goes quickly so he’s not in pain.



here we go

4 thoughts on “here we go

  1. First of all, I am so very sorry that you’re having to deal with this. It shoudn’t be happening. Second of all – if your dad is still mobile enough to go to and from places, that’s a good sign. My dad was in liver and kidney failure while he was in ICU, and they managed to bring him back around and give him a few more good weeks. It’s really terrifying to think in terms of days and weeks, but until they get the news from hospice, keep your chin up. You are not alone, and the hospice workers will be able to provide some much needed guidance and help; they can and will make him comfortable and happy.


    1. He’s still walking around. He’s really weak though and is really disoriented. The doctor told us to take the car keys away. We’ve been wanting to do that for a while because his driving abilities have been getting worse and worse. She said she’s going to give my dad something to help with the level of ammonia. Unfortunately she also said it could either help or not help at all. I just don’t want him to be in this haze all the time. He’s not like my dad you know? I’m trying my best to keep it together. Today was a rough day but I’ll feel better once we have a plan with hospice.


      1. My dad said that the worst thing he ever had to do was take my grandma’s keys away from her, so I know how that goes, too. It’s like they feel like you’re keeping their independence from them, but in reality you’re just trying to save them and the other people on the road. I’m crossing my fingers that the medication works, it’s got to be scary to see your dad in that condition. Our hospice workers were some of the absolute nicest people I have ever come into contact with, so you’re going to be in good hands… and so will your dad.

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